Introduction and Index

I was given a painful physical ailment, which acts as Satan's messenger to beat me and keep me from being proud. Three times I prayed to the Lord about this and asked him to take it away. But his answer was: 'My grace is all you need, for my power is greatest when you are weak.' I am most happy, then, to be proud of my weaknesses, in order to feel the protection of Christ's power over me. I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and difficulties for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12 v 7-10

I know what it is to be in need and what it is to have more than enough. I have leant this secret, so that anywhere, at any time, I am content, whether I am full or hungry, whether I have too much or too little. I have the strength to face all conditions by the power that Christ gives me. - Philippians 4 v 12 - 13

Lord, I'm hurting! Hurting really bad! Why is it like this? Other people seem to be so different - free from pain, confident, purposeful and self-assured. I wish I was like that, but I'm not. I'm anxious, unsure, confused, in pain and sometimes in a dark pit of depression.

Please help me.

Be specially near me just now for I need you.

You are the only one who really understands me. I mean that! Sometimes I think I don't understand myself! Give me the strength I need. Give me courage to face the future - a courage based on the certainty that you will never leave me and will never let me down.